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methrowrockJust as a thin layer of dust was about to settle over notebooks and pencil-cases, it was time to shake it off and prepare for the new semester. Week 1 has come and gone, just like that, and the preceding fortnight, a daze of worry and uncertainty as we trudged through the biannual maze of CORS bidding. It has been so far, so good. Monday was FPD lecture, and after that, printing of readings. (Already! What is my life.) Tuesday was MCF lecture, which was quite interesting, with the discussions about Big Road. The night before, I was preparing myself to struggle through the film, which was a silent, black-and-white production released way back in 1935. But it didn't turn out too bad; on the contrary, it was rather engaging and quaint, if you contrast it with contemporary films. After lecture, it was rushing off to meet Bangtian and Bara for lunch. Going to miss those two come early February. :( Then, back to Holland V for dinner with Melin, Jeff, Melcher and later, Chorks. Hehe, great company as always. Wednesday was Soci with MT people, lunch with the two other girlies, IR Intro, and more notes-printing. So hardworking right. If only my enthusiasm for printing could translate into actual reading hahaha. Thursday, first taste of a free day! It turned out more like a Secret Garden day hahaha. Friday was Computing and more printing of notes. Aiming for model student of 2011, yalllll!! Haha. Itching to train again though.
That having said, I can't help but feel like I am missing out on so much more. The opportunities to participate in camps, exhibitions, talks, debates, events that will enrich! and educate! and broaden your horizons! Everytime I receive such emails, my first instinct is to shy away, which is deplorable, yes, and then to justify my dismissal with the assurance that grades are my first priority. Which is true, but to what extent? I want more, but I'm afraid that I'm not up to scratch. Which is stupid and unnecessary, because without trying, how would I know? Oh, the low self-esteem days have rolled around again. Be prepared for shameless posturing and wallowing! I kid. Somewhat. Haha. PS readings haven't been very effective at morale boosting. Quite the opposite, in fact. Maybe it is time for some major (lol!pun) reconsideration and reshuffling of priorities. Sigh.
I want to go to there.
That having said, I can't help but feel like I am missing out on so much more. The opportunities to participate in camps, exhibitions, talks, debates, events that will enrich! and educate! and broaden your horizons! Everytime I receive such emails, my first instinct is to shy away, which is deplorable, yes, and then to justify my dismissal with the assurance that grades are my first priority. Which is true, but to what extent? I want more, but I'm afraid that I'm not up to scratch. Which is stupid and unnecessary, because without trying, how would I know? Oh, the low self-esteem days have rolled around again. Be prepared for shameless posturing and wallowing! I kid. Somewhat. Haha. PS readings haven't been very effective at morale boosting. Quite the opposite, in fact. Maybe it is time for some major (lol!pun) reconsideration and reshuffling of priorities. Sigh.
I want to go to there.
