上帝有坏脾气

The euphoria of technicolour explosions and pyrotechnic starbursts have all but faded away. All that is left behind are mountains of plastick, redundant byproducts of human consumption and the hundreds of tonnes of carbon dioxide smothering the atmosphere, no thanks to ten minutes of oohs and aahs. I have the most dangerous moodswings. Just the thought of the coming months gives me splintering headaches. Orientation, soccer soccer soccer, Valentines, NTU MUN, It's In You, April Fools', ecetera ecetera, SATs again, prelims, then the pièce de résistance of our tertiary education: the A Levels. Many things on the plate, yes, but fret not, I am always one up for a buffet. Live to eat, don't merely eat to live. Besides, how can one remain down when one has the powdered company of sugarpop 雀斑? And thanks to my sister, I came to know of Lykke Li, who has some gorgeous songs too. Yikes, I was supposed to sleep two hours ago. Toodaloo!

看你头低低
像在叹息
发生了什么事情
可以不可以说给我听
也许能够帮你
如果可以就看心情
心情不好就看天气
那天气不好这就是老天的问题
如果上帝有坏脾气
不让晴天出来游戏
但至少我还可以唱歌给你听

自由

詞曲：林暐哲 演唱：張懸

為了想要得到自由，我在我肩上插上翅膀
飛過高山，飛過河流，才發現我的自由全都只是想像
其實我都一直在逃避，逃避全世界最難以面對的自己
I just want to get away from me
I just want to get away from me
如此而已
　　
為了無法忍受寂寞，我從你的心裡偷走愛情
過了兩年覺得累了，我又在我肩上插上翅膀
這次我能走到那裡？逃避全世界最難以面對的自己
I just want to get away from me
I just want to get away from me
如此而已
Hide, hide away from me
Hide, hide away from me
Hide, 我躲不掉我自己

Thanks Yi Le, for reigniting my love of 張懸. It has been too long since I was last immersed in her wistful melodies and pillowy voice. Today was a tiring day. Walk-in practice from 9am all the way to 7pm for training. I think I may have lost the motivation today, sorry. But I will recover soon for sure, somehow someway. It is only two days into the new year but already, I am clamouring for a time-out. The days can only grow more taxing. But, they will come in due time. For now, I just want to get away from me. 如此而已.