more than meets the eye

Walking home today, I was in a foul mood, scowling and glowering at everything: the rattling drills, the ants on the fence, the poser with tootight pants. Then, this song popped up and before long, I found myself yelling out the lyrics huffily, weird looks bedamned. Definitely not a pretty sight, but hey, it worked. Maybe it was because the guitar riffs were simple and ear-catching, maybe it was because the words resonated with me, maybe it was because it was 五月天, I don't know. What I was sure of, however, is that if one more person extends a friendly reminder for me to start studying, I would instantly self-implode. Thank you for the loyalty and the warmheartedness, but please understand I have this stupid rebellious streak that is usually very well-hidden. Examinations, revision and sciences are really not my cups of tea; I'm more familiar with a life of wasting away and malignant nonchalance. Or maybe I'm just irate because I know now, for sure, that my dreams-academics and otherwise- are way out of my league and that this is the stupidest I have ever felt in a long time. Bummer.

想要执着 反而磋跎 越是等候 反而越是错过
找到成就 反而堕落 越是温暖 反而越是折磨
寂寞 太多寂寞 反而喧哗 拥挤着我
自由 太多自由 反而想作笼里的野兽
而你 是否看穿了我 看穿了我 假装的冷漠
而你 是否害怕着我 反而带走属于我的温柔
看的清楚 反而朦胧 越是了解 反而越是惶恐
保持沉默 反而脆弱 越是忍耐 反而越是汹涌
自由 太多自由 反想做笼里的野兽