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Jul. 7th, 2008 01:15 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
methrowrockIt has been a great week so far. Sure, the homework load may have been suffocating and the results may have been (much) less than satisfactory, but considering the amount of effort I invested into studying, it's no surprise after all. Perhaps the main reason why I fail is because I'm afraid of failure. Sounds like a muddlesome conundrum eh. But it's easy enough to understand. With emotions detached and hopes unpegged from the clothesline of lofty aspirations, a spanking failure can always be chalked up to iwillstudyhardernexttimes. "it wasn't for the lack of intelligence, it was for the lack of effort", "if I try, I can do it" - that's what I'm trying to sell myself. And cowardly me bought the salesman's pitch and chose to run away from my fear. Stupid really, deceiving myself and letting my parents down in the process. Not cool. I wish, I wish, I wish. But it's too late and I probably can't do it even if I try. Idiot.
Friends have been funky. S11, S11, oh S11. Dragging Grace along on embarrassing visits to the washroom hoho, grossing Dilys out in lectures with my seductive growls of "beeehbbbbyyy" complete with quirked eyebrow and lopsided smirk HAHAHA, kawaii kitten + kutie kutie pie + murmuring mermaid pretty puppy HAHAHA, muttering "stuuupid, dilys is seriously stuupid, seriousssly ssso stuupid" in an annoyed tone while looking all over place, going on canteen sight-seeing trips with Melinda, stalking my darling kutiekutiepie Cheryl Heng haha are among the prominent things I remember. (Mostly) everyone in S11 make my day.
Ooh ooh, Thursday afternoon was Yakin soccer day! Okay, only Mi Jie, Si Hui, Luthur, Eugene and Alan were there but other people turned up along the way, like Mylene, Yu Rui and Keith and can't remember who else. Wahaha it was so fun. 2 hours of reckless, heckless fun. But I'm awakened to how much I suck. I'm gonna train even harder damnit! After physical intensity came a mental workout in the form of Bridge with bridge buddies Eugene, Si Hui and Yu Rui. Itchy fingers, ho yeah. Then bio va discussion with Melinda and Dilys, which always ends up in digression, laughter and randomness hehe. Dinner at Hwa Chong was pretty much the same. As was the cab ride. "DO YOU WANT A CIGARETTE?" HAHAHA.
was soccer girls outing yesterday! Training on Friday comes a close second though. Finally, some direction. A real training training in a long while. And I'm telling ya, I'm gonna get my act together and become "ultra super fit". If it's for the team, I'm willing to try my hardest and run my guts out. I'd better as well.
Anyway, soccer girls outing, whoo. Met at Harbourfront at 1pm though full strength was only recorded at 2pm. Typical aha. Tiffany's KSA buddy, Seok Jin, tagged along as well. We kinda left him out initially, which made me feel guilty, but things grew better after a while. Pestered him to teach us some Korean during lunch. NAPUN CHINGUNYA (?) aha. After lunch was picnic-shopping time. Si Hui was damn cute la haha. Then some people made a swift exit when it was time to pay, leaving Shiyun, Emily, Leena and I. Hahaha Emily and Shiyun indulged their 7-year-old child by squeezing into the small car. Then came the great battle where rapid thrusts of a pink plastic spoon were deftly parried by a green plastic spoon on the mushy brown plains of cookies&cream ice-cream hahaha and which ended in cutting through the ribbons of air to form chinese idioms (无与伦比,天下无敌,饮水思源) for a special hadouken attack HAHA. True, it was lame but it was damn funny at the time. There came Mr Percy Pig and the shielding of greed by Shiyun too heehee.
Sentosa was tons of funnytimes as well. Volleyball with a football, football with a football, frenetic chasing after the football, volleyball which turned into football, Leena as a dunkingball. Breathless fun, yeah. Then, it started raining so we sought for shelter. Soon, it was time for Tiff and her buddy to leave so we walked them out and plonked down at Delifrance. Heehee Sihui, Leena and I had a marshmallow stuffing competition, which Leena, my shuai ge ge, won 7 to 6 marshmallows. After which, we spat out our marshmallows and grossed out Jingmin haha.
Then it was back to Vivo and we headed for Food Republic for dinner. Before that, I taught Leena my ultimate special cha-cha dance HAHA, found two endorsements in the cuteness of the blue-towel guy, created a magic trick with Leena, laughed at Sihui when she stumbled after the shock of the door opening behind her and alot, got called a piece of shit by Emily haha and ???. Yeah. Dinner was a funny affair as well. I like soccer girls alot. Yeah. Be it talking cock with Tiffany, getting battered by Leena, Emily's unbeatable crappiness, tapping Shiyun on the shoulder and her disbelieving stare to my unbelievable look of innocence, Yi Tong's -_- expressions to Leena, Si Hui's bubbly, shiny personality, Jingmin's makesyouwannalaugh laughter, all these little things add up to make me double-up with happiness and laughter. rabu rabu~
That being said, it's not exactly true that all things are fine and dandy. Lately, I've come to discover things that I dislike, things that I didn't bother about before. About myself, about people, about the environment. Could I have been blind before? Or was it that I simply chose to ignore it to sing myself a merry nursery rhyme? Maybe baby. But the only thing that I have control over is myself and sometimes, that's the hardest part to change. It is so much easier to lean back and shift the blame somewhere else. But I know, I would never forgive myself like that. To hell with you, kiddo. It's just a mountain over a molehill.
I miss going crazy over Korean fandoms with Jia.
Friends have been funky. S11, S11, oh S11. Dragging Grace along on embarrassing visits to the washroom hoho, grossing Dilys out in lectures with my seductive growls of "beeehbbbbyyy" complete with quirked eyebrow and lopsided smirk HAHAHA, kawaii kitten + kutie kutie pie + murmuring mermaid pretty puppy HAHAHA, muttering "stuuupid, dilys is seriously stuupid, seriousssly ssso stuupid" in an annoyed tone while looking all over place, going on canteen sight-seeing trips with Melinda, stalking my darling kutiekutiepie Cheryl Heng haha are among the prominent things I remember. (Mostly) everyone in S11 make my day.
Ooh ooh, Thursday afternoon was Yakin soccer day! Okay, only Mi Jie, Si Hui, Luthur, Eugene and Alan were there but other people turned up along the way, like Mylene, Yu Rui and Keith and can't remember who else. Wahaha it was so fun. 2 hours of reckless, heckless fun. But I'm awakened to how much I suck. I'm gonna train even harder damnit! After physical intensity came a mental workout in the form of Bridge with bridge buddies Eugene, Si Hui and Yu Rui. Itchy fingers, ho yeah. Then bio va discussion with Melinda and Dilys, which always ends up in digression, laughter and randomness hehe. Dinner at Hwa Chong was pretty much the same. As was the cab ride. "DO YOU WANT A CIGARETTE?" HAHAHA.
was soccer girls outing yesterday! Training on Friday comes a close second though. Finally, some direction. A real training training in a long while. And I'm telling ya, I'm gonna get my act together and become "ultra super fit". If it's for the team, I'm willing to try my hardest and run my guts out. I'd better as well.
Anyway, soccer girls outing, whoo. Met at Harbourfront at 1pm though full strength was only recorded at 2pm. Typical aha. Tiffany's KSA buddy, Seok Jin, tagged along as well. We kinda left him out initially, which made me feel guilty, but things grew better after a while. Pestered him to teach us some Korean during lunch. NAPUN CHINGUNYA (?) aha. After lunch was picnic-shopping time. Si Hui was damn cute la haha. Then some people made a swift exit when it was time to pay, leaving Shiyun, Emily, Leena and I. Hahaha Emily and Shiyun indulged their 7-year-old child by squeezing into the small car. Then came the great battle where rapid thrusts of a pink plastic spoon were deftly parried by a green plastic spoon on the mushy brown plains of cookies&cream ice-cream hahaha and which ended in cutting through the ribbons of air to form chinese idioms (无与伦比,天下无敌,饮水思源) for a special hadouken attack HAHA. True, it was lame but it was damn funny at the time. There came Mr Percy Pig and the shielding of greed by Shiyun too heehee.
Sentosa was tons of funnytimes as well. Volleyball with a football, football with a football, frenetic chasing after the football, volleyball which turned into football, Leena as a dunkingball. Breathless fun, yeah. Then, it started raining so we sought for shelter. Soon, it was time for Tiff and her buddy to leave so we walked them out and plonked down at Delifrance. Heehee Sihui, Leena and I had a marshmallow stuffing competition, which Leena, my shuai ge ge, won 7 to 6 marshmallows. After which, we spat out our marshmallows and grossed out Jingmin haha.
Then it was back to Vivo and we headed for Food Republic for dinner. Before that, I taught Leena my ultimate special cha-cha dance HAHA, found two endorsements in the cuteness of the blue-towel guy, created a magic trick with Leena, laughed at Sihui when she stumbled after the shock of the door opening behind her and alot, got called a piece of shit by Emily haha and ???. Yeah. Dinner was a funny affair as well. I like soccer girls alot. Yeah. Be it talking cock with Tiffany, getting battered by Leena, Emily's unbeatable crappiness, tapping Shiyun on the shoulder and her disbelieving stare to my unbelievable look of innocence, Yi Tong's -_- expressions to Leena, Si Hui's bubbly, shiny personality, Jingmin's makesyouwannalaugh laughter, all these little things add up to make me double-up with happiness and laughter. rabu rabu~
That being said, it's not exactly true that all things are fine and dandy. Lately, I've come to discover things that I dislike, things that I didn't bother about before. About myself, about people, about the environment. Could I have been blind before? Or was it that I simply chose to ignore it to sing myself a merry nursery rhyme? Maybe baby. But the only thing that I have control over is myself and sometimes, that's the hardest part to change. It is so much easier to lean back and shift the blame somewhere else. But I know, I would never forgive myself like that. To hell with you, kiddo. It's just a mountain over a molehill.
I miss going crazy over Korean fandoms with Jia.
